Today was my last day. I have officially graduated from cosmetology school. I never thought this moment would come, but I am so happy it has. Thank you everyone who has supported me and encouraged me to get where I am today.
Expect greatness. And I mean that.
Today was a “dead-end” day for me. Honestly, I don’t feel as if I’m anything special. Moreso than that, I truthfully don’t think I am all that creative nor talented at all. I’m average. I feel as if everything I try to do falls short of expectations. Even though I would love to do certain things, I’m not sure if I am capable.
Oh, ps: I got my eyebrows waxed at school today. I just got them cleaned up. I had a really bad taste in my mouth about the waxing of my eyebrows after my last experience..
Today was a really good day. We received a new teacher in school today and we all had to go around the room to introduce ourselves. Followed by a brief description of what we love to do or what we plan to do in the future. When it was my turn I said “Hi, I’m Key and, one day, I’d like to do hair and makeup for runways.” Later in the day my teacher pulled me aside and said she wanted to talk to me. She told me that I’m going to make it. That I’m going to go far in this industry and that she was going to make a call to her friend. What about she didn’t tell me, but it completely made my day. To hear from a person who has just met me that she thinks I’m going to succeed in this field. To hear that even one person has that much faith in me. To know that she has such a great amount of hope for my future when I’m not even completely sure most of the time. Even though I’d never be able to tell her and my simple “thank you” could never suffice, what she said means so much to me. I wish I had more positive people like her in my life. I wish that I would have met her sooner. Even though I graduate in a month, I’m so happy to have this last amount of time to gain the rest of my confidence. I’m so happy to have had this experience — whether I’d do it again or not. I’m so happy to have had the opportunity, the encouragement, the realistic and life-knowledge that I am able to walk away from this with. Sometimes you meet one person who says one thing without thinking_ and that one person manages to change your entire perspective and, sometimes, your entire life.
I’m so fucking pissed at myself. I missed school today. AGAIN. I overslept and now have no ride there. I also missed my 11 hours on Tuesday (since I normally stay after). I feel as if I’m never going to fucking graduate. I’ve come way too far with perfect attendance to start missing all of these days now.
No one else understands, but I’m so. angry. at. myself. At this rate, I probably won’t graduate until December 1st. On top this, I have all of these emotions running through my mind.
Acne is NOT the result of bad hygiene.
So shut the fuck up. I’m a hormonal teenager who has occasionally severe acne breakouts. Congratulations for your overwhelming analytical skills, you insensitive assholes. Sometimes, this is really why I fucking hate being surrounded by people with nearly flawless skin.
The results of my hair colouring session today. The first two photos are before pictures (obviously), whereas the following three are the finished product. I think it turned out relatively well.
My friend is coming over soon to get her hair coloured and highlighted. I’m so freaking nervous. I’m starving, but I don’t want to eat. I don’t understand why I’m so anxious. This is what I go to school for, isn’t it?
efklesmkflmsefpwmflwd. I hate these jitters.
